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The Price of Being Right

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My belief is that there is often something more important than taking sides in a debate or argument.

How is my attitude towards the subject affecting my consciousness? Does my position cause an expansion of consciousness, or a contraction? This is not an intellectual question. It requires an intuitively-felt answer, and you will know that answer immediately. My suggestion is that if your relationship to the subject causes a contraction, just let it go.

Whether you are right or wrong makes no difference at all to what I am talking about. You can be right, morally justified and vindicated – and in diminishment.

Most situations resolve themselves without us needing to impose our opinions on them, and upon others. Yes, even the big things. There is nothing wrong with having an opinion, nor in believing it to be right. But if your attachment to that position comes at the expense of your own spirit, is it really worth the price?

Marcus

Why Life is Cruel: A Spiritual Perspective

The following is an extract from my upcoming book, Champion of the Soul.

The soul’s journey is one of grace. The universe guides us and nurtures us, much like a loving parent.
But that parent knows the value of tough love. Oftentimes it leads us into places that lead to suffering, where that suffering can deepen our wisdom. And it is perfectly willing to allow us to make foolish choices which can lead to painful outcomes.

I have come to know this from personal experience, and from witnessing the lives of others.

Not that long ago I personally experienced this yet again in my life. I attended a teacher-training course run by Cambridge University, the CELTA course. This programme for teachers of English as a second language is well known for being very, very tough.

In fact, it was far tougher than any training I have ever done. All teachers were required to undergo eight trainer-evaluated lessons and submit four written assignments within the space of twenty days, not including weekends.

I received the evaluation of “unsatisfactory” for my second and third lessons. For the third lesson my evaluator gave me an unsatisfactory grade for ten of the twenty assessed criteria! This must have been close to a company record.

As you might imagine, I did not feel good about this. In fact for a few hours after receiving my feedback I felt quite depressed, and beat myself up. The possibility that I would fail the entire course was looking a distinct possibility. I wondered whether I should give up. I was certainly tempted to do so. But within a few hours I remembered why I had entered the course in the first place: to receive critical evaluation of my teaching, and use the feedback to become a better teacher.

I felt despondent, but resolved to keep going. Most of all I stopped beating myself up. I stopped taking it personally.

That night as I lay down to sleep I received two pieces of spiritual guidance. Often I hear songs being played to me in this state between waking and sleeping. To be honest, I don’t really know where the melodies come from, but it seems likely they are either initiated by spiritual guides or my higher self.

The first line to come to me was very simple: “Teacher, keep on teaching.” These words are from a Stevie Wonder song, “Higher Ground”. I knew that the words were encouragement for me to keep going. To keep teaching. I knew that I was making the right decision to continue the programme.

The second song that came through to my inner ear were from an old Nick Lowe song, and contained these lines:

Cruel to be kind, in the right measure
Cruel to be kind it’s a very good sign
Cruel to be kind means that I love you, baby
You gotta be cruel to be kind

The lyrics told me that even though the feedback that I was getting from my teacher-trainers was very, very critical, it was actually in my best interests. It was, in a sense, an act of love.

I knew then that I need not take the evaluations personally, but should see them as a means to improve as a teacher.

I returned to my lesson-preparations the next day with renewed vigour. For my next lesson I received excellent evaluations, and I passed all remaining five lessons, all remaining assignments and ultimately the course itself.

Best of all, I learned an incredible amount about teaching. And learning.

The truth is that life – and God if you prefer to use this word – is often like my experience on the CELTA teaching programme. Things may sometimes seem cruel or unkind. But all things are an opportunity to learn. All things inner and outer an opportunity to awaken from the dream of mind; from the delusion that it is “all about me”.

Trusting the cruel queen
Please allow me to share something else a little personal.

In between the two failed CELTA lessons – which were taught about four days apart – I had the following dream. I transcribe it here exactly as I wrote it down in my dream journal.

Two other students from the (CELTA) course are getting some kind of psychic reading from a female oracle. She towers before us like a giant statue, and seems to look somewhat like the virgin Mary, although her image in hazy. The oracle’s head has all the left side missing (her left), as if someone has taken a great knife and chopped the left side of her face off.

I am slightly frightened and overawed.

I think R. (another student on the course) is beside me to my right. He gets a reading first. There is a loaf of bread in front of him, and I know this represents the soul issue he is being shown.

Next, the oracle turns to me.

“You’ve been into the left-hand side of the sea.” She says to me. “If you are to ever have hope, you must deal with your anger.”

There is now a loaf of bread in front of me, round and brown, which seems to represent my anger. I say something like that the issue is old, but the oracle says, “No, it’s fresh.” I look again, and sure enough the loaf seems fresh-baked.

“Have you ever lost a finger?” the giant oracle says as she she reaches down with a sharp, metal, serrated-edged knife and begins to slice into the long finger on my right hand, just to mid-right of the tip (hand facing me). I do not know whether to trust her, scared she will cut off the finger. She seems almost flippant, with a callous kind of humour.

There then comes the idea that one has to trust the goddess in these situations, so I present the hand. The blade cuts into my finger, but stops just a short way into the flesh.

I am relieved.

I wake up.

In this dream the symbolism is clear. Sometimes God (or the goddess) will invite you into places that are frightening, which might be fearful or even trigger trauma and suffering. But there is an intention that through the experience you might be brought into deeper awareness of your soul issues, of the self-limiting beliefs and stories that you carry in your mind.

Although the meaning might not be apparent to you, for me the personal nature of the dream above was clear. In this dream my anger and blame was towards the world. The belief was that no matter what I did, I would fail, that the world would push me down. This is a victim narrative.

I might add that it is one of the most common soul issues amongst people in the world today.
The reference to going into the left-hand side of the sea was an oblique reference to allowing myself to become too caught up “in the head” and disconnecting with my body – including my deeper emotional body.

The term “the left-hand side of the sea” was an indirect reference to the left-hand side of my brain – and my developing an unbalanced cognitive predisposition which left me ungrounded and disconnected from my emotional and intuitive body.

The important thing is that no matter what your life circumstances, no matter what set of cards life has dealt you, you are still responsible for your anger and projections. God does not grant excuses. No matter how downtrodden you are (including your “people”), there is an opportunity to see through the story of the mind and into the clarity of the present moment. There is an opportunity to heal.

You just have to be prepared to own your story, assume responsibility for whatever pain lies behind it, and then release it all to God.

Never believe the story that your mind is trying to sell you. Never believe the story that your people are pleading with you to take on – no matter how morally vindicated you believe they are.

For that story is what locks you into the world of the past, into the world of pain.
And into the world of karma.

Marcus

Coming into the center – Leonard Jacobson Video

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I have often talked about the great influence that Leonard Jacobson has had on my life and thinking. Leonard does one thing exceptionally well: teach people how to bring the mind into presence, and awaken from the world of illusion.

If only we taught children the beautiful simplicity of how to be present, the world would be transformed.

The video below is one of Leonard’s most profound, I think. So I simply share it here.

Marcus

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New eBook: The Truth about Karma

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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As many of the regular readers of my blog realise, I have spent many years exploring the human psyche through introspection. When I started meditating twenty years ago I was shocked to discover that I was clairvoyant. I had no idea what that even meant at the time, and had spent my entire adult life till that point as an avowed skeptic and empiricist – if you can’t measure it, it ain’t real! But my experiences with my inner world left me no choice but to accept that the human mind is embedded within layers of consciousness which transcend the physical boundaries of the skull. We are spiritual beings.

It was more than another decade before I began to wrote anything about what I perceived on my inner journey. At first it was all rather academic (whcih emerged from my doctoral studies on Integrated Intelligence), but gradually I realised that by sticking to academic protocols I was selling myself short. Why limit myself to what the academic world is comfortable with? So that’s why I wrote my first popular book, Discover Your Soul Template, which was published by Inner Traditions in 2012.

My next full book The Deepening: The Art of Unconditional Love will come out in ebook format in about a month or so. It is a follow-up to Discover Your Soul Template. In the meantime I have released a smaller booklet which is related to The Deepening. It is specifically about the nature of karma, sin and morality on the spiritual journey, and how these have been misrepresented.  It’s called The Truth About Karma. ,  and I am delighted to announce that it is available as of right now as a Kidle book! Below, I have included part of The Truth about Karma. I think you’ll find it interesting, perhaps even illuminating.

Blessings,

Marcus

 

The Truth about Karma

After twenty years of exploring the human psyche at intense depths – both my own and others, I have come to accept many aspects of certain spiritual teachings as either true, or true beyond reasonable doubt. Firstly, Heaven and Hell don’t exist, at least not in the way that they are commonly depicted. There are consciousness fields which resonate at different levels of light and dark; or good and evil if you prefer, but that is rather simplistic). They are not rewards, but natural gradations of spirit. Lower density consciousness fields resonate with fear, shame, and are typified by a refusal to accept the truth; higher density consciousness fields resonate with loving acceptance, non-judgment and transparent honesty. Beings of darkness seek power and control and seek to destroy that which will not bend to their will. Entities within higher consciousness fields have surrendered to the will of Grace. They seek no power.

The spiritual traditions have got it more correct than modern science when it comes to the essential nature of consciousness and the meaning of life. I can tell you beyond any shadow of doubt that consciousness is not confined to the mind or body, and that minds interact with each other telepathically. That means that ESP is genuine. Both spiritual guidance and interference from dark spiritual entities are also genuine. And life after death and reincarnation are genuine as far as I have been able to determine.

So what I write here in this chapter follows on from these insights which I have perceived directly through clairvoyant perception. This perception is in part a gift, but also enhanced through thousands of hours of meditative and introspective practice.

Now let me get to the main thing that I wish to discuss in this chapter. I have come to the ultimate conclusion that there is no such thing as karmic debt and no absolute requirement for a soul to repay debts incurred in current or previous incarnations. The ultimate imperative in the evolution of the human Spirit – both for the human collective oversoul and the individual – is the return to oneness from separation. This is effectively saying that the goal of your existence and mine is a return to love.

What stands between your mind and this evolutionary end is your refusal to surrender to the truth of what is here in this moment; a bad habit that locks you into that illusion of separation. And what is it that can transcend all this illusion? The answer is simple. Unconditional love, which is the natural flowering of consciousness when the present moment is fully embraced. When the soul learns to love all parts of itself without conditions, then all latent energies within the soul will emerge into the light. Then the light of the soul is no longer impeded by your mind’s constant rejection – of self and of world. For the self and the world (as we experience it) are effectively the same thing. When you reject yourself, you deny your lovability. When you reject what God has placed before you in this day, in this moment, you reject divine love. You reject God.

All judgment destroys love.

The flower of spirit will bloom when the water of love is poured upon all that you see and experience, both within and without.

But such an awakening process does not typically occur instantly, even when a person instantaneously makes a complete commitment to love. There are latent emotional and karmic energies which exist within the soul. In a certain sense, there is truth to the old saying that “to heal it you have to feel it”. Yet for almost everyone, those latent energies are piled up from many years of suffering, both in this lifetime and previous ones. It would be overwhelming for you to experience all your karma at once. So what happens is that the energies unwind slowly. The image that came to me as I explored my own repressed emotions was that of a giant ball of string slowly being unwound. I had to learn to be patient. So will you.

All this means that as you relax and allow what is within you to emerge, you will almost certainly experience some disconcerting waves of emotional energy rise from your soul. Some of these waves will represent repressed pain from childhood and your current life. And yes, some of these energies will emerge from past lives. The third source will be the energy of your ancestors, which has been passed down from generation to generation and implanted into your mind at birth.

Here is something of utmost importance, and I hope you are paying attention. If the latent karmic energy within you is simply fully permitted expression without resistance and processed in the present moment, there is then no requirement to experience it in physical form. In other words, you do not need to be re-born into a body to get the lesson, as you will have gotten the same consciousness through the awakening process.

Therefore it is not true that you have to pay off karmic debts or sin before you awaken. Awakening essentially requires the embracing of the total truth of who you are in this moment, including all repressed energies from within.

The idea that you need to repay debts in the physical world before awakening is a false teaching.

 

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Diary of a 21st Century Mystic, #2: Wisdom & action

DIARY OF A 21st CENTURY MYSTIC (#2). “It isn’t necessary to be right, just don’t get it wrong.” Apparently this is a quote by management guru and futurist Peter Schwartz. I heard it quoted yesterday at the Asia-Pacific Foresight conference in Perth, Western Australia, and it struck me as a profound truth. Too often we move through life worrying about making mistakes, and believing that there is only one right way to do or create something. In spiritual circles, people often make the mistake of thinking about “my calling” or “the will of God”. If we deviate from the one right path, then it will be disastrous. The result of such a mind-set can be guilt or self-condemnation.

In turn, this leads to anxiety and judgment of what lies before us, of the life that we have created or are in the process of creating. We then lose presence, the connection with the bountiful joy of the present moment. The heart then tightens and restricts the expression of love. The spirit becomes fearful and reclusive, and stops taking positive actions towards creating its desired future.

The truth is that there are many ways to express your spirit, your calling. There is no single right way. The process of creation is just as important as the outcome. I say, go about your life and creating your goals with a light heart and a joyful stride. Enjoy the day. One way to make everything “wrong” is to judge and condemn others or yourself. Even if you are successful beyond your wildest dreams, is it worth it if the process is full of fear, anger and rejection? Personally, I say it isn’t.

We all have an inbuilt intuitive guidance system – Integrated Intelligence. Listen to it. It will let you know if you are creating a future that will lead to suffering and failure. It is also true that suffering and failure are in themselves not intrinsically “negative”, as long as we learn quickly and move on. Yet most of us would agree that it is preferable to learn through joy and success, not via the pain of failure and rejection!

So listen to your intuition. When it tells you are going in the wrong direction, stop and listen. I have created a simple process called the Wisdom Cycle, which works from the principles that I have written about above.

You can begin the Wisdom Cycle by “checking energy”. This just means listening to your intuition or applying any of the INI Tools I have written about in Discover Your Soul Template. Allow excitement and passion to draw your forward, for these are the feelings that draw you towards the highest expression of “self”. If it feels right, take action towards the goal. You can imagine the outcome (goal) and even visualise it, but don’t get too attached to it. Release expectations and continue move forward with passion and excitement. After some time you will be able to observe results. Evaluation means that you decide if the result is good, bad, or somewhere in between. You can modify your actions if you choose. Again, you can use your Integrated Intelligence at this point to check for what feels right. The last step is “integration”, which is simply the learning and wisdom which emerges from your experience, some of which will be subconscious, and some of which will occur from your rational mind evaluating the whole situation.

The Wisdom Cycle helps you keep on the right track, on one of the many paths that resonate with your spirit. It also helps keep you alert to failure, to going in the wrong direction. Most importantly it enables a joyful and relaxed approach to life and “achievement”. It is very relevant to where I am in my life, as I write this. There is a state of strong uncertainty, where I stand at a crossroads with many possible paths to take. But I will say more about this in my next post.

Travel well,

Marcus

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